VENTING.

I really very much HATE having ulcerative colitis. So many jobs i want to apply for or know would be good at, but then i think about if they will be able to accommodate for when i have to get sick. I know life isn't fair....but i'm still going to say this...IT'S NOT FAIR. I want to be able to sit through a whole movie. i want to be able to go have a picnic at a park. and i want to eat cheeseburgers, steaks, nachos, pizza, barbecue, hot sauce, chips, hot fries, chili cheese fries, hot dogs, corn dogs, chicken alfredo. I want to be able to eat withough worrying about how the food will make me feel afterward. I want to sleep a whole night without having to wake up to get sick. i want to wake up and not feel sick. I want a cure. :'(

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic

Miss me(work in progress)

I'm gonna make you miss me
I'm gonna make you feel just like i do
Deep down inside
A lonely heart left to ache is all you'll have
Bits and pieces,
Memories of the past
You left me just like that

I'm not going to go back in time
When you were mine.
It's too late for that
I'm going to make new adventures
Find miracles, I'd never thought I'd see
Going to be the person I've always known I'd be
without you

It's been a rough road letting go
but you are not mine
I don't want you back
I've shed my share of tears, hoping
Hoping for the day you'd come back for me
But I've learned so many things since that day

..the impossible...

I've lived my life hoping to find my fairytale

Always thought I'd end up in it someday

I was naive, thinking it would be so easy

That my prince charming would come sweep me off my feet

Its not that simple when its not make believe.

I wanna be the person he sees in his dreams

I wanna be fearless

I wanna believe in the impossible..

Oh,

It's impossible.

Artsy at Times

Fairytale - medium: pencil
Tale of Gengi- Medium:pencil
Mom's Birthday Card medium: oil pastels
Rest medium:pencil
Alive medium: pencil
Firebird medium: oil pastels
Flow medium: oil pastels
what happens when i get bored... medium: acrylic paint
unfinished work medium:soft pastels
Print making medium Linoleum block, some printing ink was applied
The original drawing to use for linoleum block medium:pencil
Trying to figure out how to print .... medium: copier was used, carbon pencil
more unfinished business.. medium: carbon pencil
unfinished once more medium: pencil
The Ugly Duckling medium: pencil


Just some things that i like to do in my free time...as for the trend of unfinished pieces,well i have no excuse they just never were finished

more stuff for the final i have in less than 45 mins.!

Inflammatory Response
1. Microbe penetrates the barrier
2. Capillaries dilate due to C3a and C5a;
3. Mast cells release cytokines
4. Blood flow increases(redness/rubor), causing heat(calor)
5. Capillaries increase permeability--> edema or "tumor"-->pain(dolor)
6. White blood cells exit capillaries & gather at injury site

Micro-freakin-biology final...

how i loathe thee...
antibiotics

Penicillin binds PBPs; inhibits the formation of bridges in peptidoglycan, its bacteriocidal, spectrum/organism=Gm+, Inhibition=Beta-lactamases; Efflux of drug; Porin size(Gm-), PenG is given IV and IM PenV is given PO 1st generation and effective vs growing bacteria

Methicillin binds PBPs, its bacteriocidal, its spectrum/organism= Gm+, inhibition= Beta-lactamases; Efflux of drug; Porin size(Gm-), it is resistant to inactivation by penicillinase of CA-MRSA

Ampicillin & Amoxicillin bind PBPs they are bacteriocidal, spectrum/organisms=Gm+; growing E.coli, Proteus, inhibition= beta-lactamases; Efflux of drug; Porin size(Gm-), given PO and is 2nd generation

Carbenicillin & Ticarcillin bind PBPs , its bacteriocidal, spectrum/organisms= Gm+ & Gm-, include Pseudomonas, Inhibition= beta-lactamases; Efflux of drug; Porin size(Gm-), given PO and is 3rd generation

Monobactams (Aztreonam) bind PBPs, bacteriocidal, spectrum/organism=Aerobic Gm-; Enterobacteriaceae, resistant to beta-lactamases, narrow spectrum given to those allergic to penicillin

Vancomycin Affects the (D-ala)2 chain in growing cells, its bacteriocidal, spectrum/organism= MRSA, Clostridium difficile doesn't cross the outer membrane of Gm- bacteria, drug of last resort except for MRSA and AAc(antibiotic associated colitis)

Isoniazid affects mycolic acid synthesis, bacteriocidal, spectrum/organisms=growing Mycobacteria, decrease drug uptake, resistant to tuberculosis, given PO 1st line tuberculosis treatment and is hepatotoxic

to be continued...i'm hungry very hungry...and i think i may have stumbled upon a miracle...

When all else fails..

..sing...

Sometimes no matter how hard you try
its not enough.
People come into your life just to walk right away.
Its a hurt everyone meets.
A pain that never dulls.
How do we prepare..
How do we know.
Just be ready,
its all unknown
No one is who they seem
There are flaws that we all learn to hide.
You can want and hope someone is the person
you thought they were from the start.
No matter how well you know them
It is still a surprise when
They bring to you the hurt that everyone meets
A pain that never dulls....
-note:not finished and will still be revised at a later time-