When all else fails..

..sing...

Sometimes no matter how hard you try
its not enough.
People come into your life just to walk right away.
Its a hurt everyone meets.
A pain that never dulls.
How do we prepare..
How do we know.
Just be ready,
its all unknown
No one is who they seem
There are flaws that we all learn to hide.
You can want and hope someone is the person
you thought they were from the start.
No matter how well you know them
It is still a surprise when
They bring to you the hurt that everyone meets
A pain that never dulls....
-note:not finished and will still be revised at a later time-

Today...

...is my friend Jose's 21st birthday and my friend Alex's 23rd
Happy Birthday punks!
...here it goes...
i'm sitting in my o chem class..and just thinking..i am learning nothing in here at all!
this guy doesn't explain enough to grasp any concepts and its sad.
i'm paying money...and giving time..for something so pointless

Frustrating frustrating frustrating.
.....
this morning we had our evaluation in ballet on the chinese variation...
after the dancers were picked that would be doing that dance...
i was not one of them..but i guess its a good thing, that dance made my legs cramp up everytime!
PLUS we are going to begin the spanish variation next week!






i hope i get picked for the one i like the most(there is still another variation to learn after spanish)...we shall see after i see the choreography..
cant wait!!!
...
lab in a little less than an hour...not excited at all...can i go home now?!

Just Because...

...I am thinking ....

I have AWESOME friends!
I'm really lucky that i met them
every single one of em
ya'll are all sweethearts and crazy fun!
Thanks!!!!!!!!
ballet exam tomorrow morning, getting recorded doing Chinese from nutcracker..
so its naptime

sometimes emotions find words

So....met this really cool guy and for some reason i sang and sang and sang as he played his guitar...
it was weird i don't sing in front of people, i'm not great, so its something i do for myself.
talked the next day and sent him some lyrics i had written once. he put some music to them and i really can't wait to hear it although there is a chance its not what i had in mind at all. Just the fact that someone liked what i had to say is exciting.
I can't help myself in thinking
I've been in this place before
And time and time again
I'm thinking it over
but these feelings aren't changing
I'm falling apart
and i need
someone to take me away
take me away
take me away to a place where i can finally breath
out of this situation
out of this situation
Let me feel something again
I want to be able to let go of this pain
Forget my difficulties
and live a dream i shouldn't hold on to
the unknown sorrows that tear me up inside
they're bringing me down
they're bringing me down
they're bringing me down til i cry
for the very last time............