If I could escape

if i could escape
i would i'd pack up
and go
to where i don't know
if i could escape
i'd try to be
the person i need to be
not hurting just focusing
if i could escape
i'd have the chance,
the chance to forget
about the stranger that sleeps in my house
if i could escape
i would not look back
and wish him well
nor think of his positives
if i could escape
i'd do my best,
my best to eventually get everyone else out
to let them have a little more air
if i could escape
maybe
maybe i would not cause more hurt than i already do
if i could escape
there would be maybe just one more ounce of happiness
one less tear shed
if i could escape
then and only then
will the noting of my every move be halted
if i could escape
what would become of the people i leave in harm
if i could escape
how could i be sure
everything
everything is ok
that everything won't get worse
how can i be sure
if i escape
i would be free of the man that causes pain
but i would be guilty of leaving the people i love
in his hands
if i could escape....would i?